Sunday, March 18, 2012

So it is working...

Swam today.
3000 meters.
I am sorely out of shape.
Had to put my ego aside, suck it up, convince myself not to quit, about 10 times. I feel pretty good that I finished all those meters! I a currently exhausted...but it is a good exhausted.
Have not ran since well before Christmas, like about October. Have had some really bad sleep issues. As in I wasn't sleeping...at all. My head would feel like it was between a vice grip during the day and my ears would ring ALL EFFING NIGHT. A very tight vice grip. Doctor says I was seriously stressed and overwhelmed. Funny how your body tells you stuff. I didn't necessarily FEEL stressed...fall time is always a bit overwhelming with school starting and kids' stuff kicking it into high gear...but I thought I was doing okay. She had me do an anxiety test and I was OFF THE CHART.
Some really big (but exciting) things were happening at work and I was pumped and ready to tackle them...but I guess my inner self was saying "Hold up...you think too much at night about work...I am not going to let you sleep..."
I had tried everything up till then...accupunture...a sleep therapist...I read all I could about sleep and how to get and stay asleep...nothing worked. When I started bawling in line at the Extra Foods because I had forgot to tell the gal I forgot my reusable bags, could I please buy one plastic bag...and she got all bitchy...I thought, perhaps, it was time to get some help. So I broke down and took the damn drugs.
My life has been a 180 degree change. I am FINALLY back to feeling like me...I sleep 7-8 hours a night, non interrupted, the good and deep sleep. I love medication! Seriously, I do.
So I swam today. I am back going to the gym a couple of times per week. I hired trainer last fall, his name is Rob, he is very awesome. I have lost some weight. I have found that by eating clean, and I mean really super clean, this helps me sleep. Next up, I want to start running again.
I will try for about 30 minutes tomorrow am...let you know how it goes!
Its been a long year...
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Kelly's Favorite Quotes

  • You can quit and they don't care...but YOU will always know.
  • You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this. I can take the next thing that comes along.' You must do the thing you think you cannot do. - Eleanor Roosevelt
  • "Always maintain composure and class. Hard work will yield results" - I live my life by this one
  • "Courage is the first of human qualities because it is the quality that guarantees all others." - One of my favorite historical figures
  • "Don't hug me Mom, you are all sweaty!" - My 5 year old
  • "You're gonna run a 1/2 marathon in February, in ski pants?"-My Co-Worker
  • "Go for it! Let us know what you need." - My Boss
  • "It ain't the man in the fight, it's the fight in the man." - My Dad
  • "You signed up for...what?" - My Spouse